I think about her in many ways
Memories left over from yesterdays
When everything was hers and mine
When love was our eternal valentine
I came alive when first we met
You woke up my silent heart
You took my dreams and made them real
I died the day we had to part
Now you are someone I’ll always love
Someone I share in my reverie
While I’ll go on without you
And this love may never come again
Nothing will ever be as it has been
For our love was meant for eternity.
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Oh how I’ll hate the longing years
The years counted by drops of my tears
The years ahead that I’ll spend
The years of my life where I’ll pretend
That life has meaning and purpose for me
A life I’ll keep secret that no one will see
The time in my life where I’ll make-believe
Many I’ll fool
Many I’ll deceive
For no one knows what’s locked in my heart
The love I’ve stored
The love I’ve kept
The tears I’ve tasted
The tears I’ve wept
A life I’ll keep silent never to conceal
For no one listens
For no one hears
Oh how I’ll hate the longing years
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“What worries you,
Masters you.”
John Locke
(1632-1704)
Haunted by a delusive spirit
You become enslaved to false beliefs and opinions
You chase after untruths that tickle your ears
You distort reality contrary to fact
You discover yourself misled by your doubts and fears
No where to turn you continue the path
Along with others
Dismissing the aftermath
Never a cry for help heard
Never a word
You find yourself disillusioned
Fooled
Tricked
Duped
Into thinking everything is cool
You conceive wrongly
Being deceived all along
But for you
Wrongs are always right
Rights are always wrong
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“Facts do not cease to exist
Because they are ignore”
Aldous Hurley, Complete essays 2
I’ll never fall this way again
When I fell in love
She caught me
And although she’s gone
She never let go
It’s been that way
And yet even today
I often wonder why
Only love knows the truth
She belonged to my youth♥
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How do you?
Erase an image
When the heart says no
Lose a memory
When the heart says no
Dry your tears
When the heart says no
Relieve the sadness
When the heart says no
Dismiss the fragrance
When the heart says no
Say good-bye
When the heart says no
How do you know?
Only those who have truly loved and lost so
Can appreciate why
The heart says no♥
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Oh how I wish
I didn’t love you so
You pretend to be what you are not
You feign reality
Continually
Cease-less
You role play life
That you invent
Fabricate
Imitate
Simulate
You wear a pretentious front
You attempt to deceive
A false showing
With false reasoning
While in your heart you believe
You play a make-believe lying game
With never a hint of shame
That we also play along
So why should we assign any blame
When we ourselves pretend there’s nothing wrong
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“God has given you one face,
And you make yourself another.”
William Shakespeare
Why pray to an imposter
Why hold up futility
Why claim misplaced loyalty
Why follow false reasoning
You speak lies your heart has conceived
You utter lies your heart has believed
You owe allegiance to
Things that are
Worthless
Impotent
Powerless
You kiss a piece of wood
You caress things you’ve obsessed for
You chase after flattering lips
With misdirected devotion
You’ll never know how fragile life can be
When you live out each day in vanity
They may go by many titles
But soon they become your secret idols
Do you morn for yourself?
Do you feel any joy in unrelenting pain?
Do you witness any gain?
Are you willing to see tomorrow
If it’s worth the pain today?
Pangs may seize you
Pain may grip you
Painkillers haunt you
Painless
Endless
Relentless
Whom do you turn to?
Life has no guarantees
No one is immune
Some tolerate others can’t
Some can rise above
Others descend below
Soon you come to realize
That life has no compromise
Only a choice
You can’t have both
But are you willing to surrender your pain
Into the hands of
Someone who is willing to break an oat?
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“Pain is the breaking of the shell that
encloses your understanding.”
Kahlil Gibran
With whom am I in enmity with?
With whom do I wish to sit?
Only those that share my beliefs?
Who never call me a hypocrite?
Who is my enemy?
Those whose bitterness leads to hostility
Those that conceal their animosity
Those with latent prejudices
Those that display antagonism
Those that harbor rage
Those who exercise pride
I have made my choice
I’ve made clear my voice
I know with whom I sit
My place is at the gate
Never to be called a hypocrite
Less you take care
Less you take heed
You must also choose
His seed or hers
Why does man fall in love?
Why does the heart make it happen?
Why does it tell you to feel that way?
Not to let go
Never caring how much pain or hurting so
It awakens your desires
It stirs your passions
It plays with your thoughts
You long for relief
Your heart tells you no
It tells you to follow
“Let me take you where no man has ever been
A place where love begins”
It leads you on a journey through love’s hidden places:
Romance
compassion
Sorrow
Grief
Jealousy
Love’s other traces
It shows you its beauty
It tells you of its charms
You taste its sweetness
The fragrance of its passion
You touch its essence wrapped in meekness
It lifts you back and tells you why
Love never sleeps
Love never tires
Revealing itself at a moment’s try
Love gives a nudge
Love gives a shove
As it has always been
Love awakens love