I hated myself for the letting you go
I walked out of your life loving you so
A love too mature I couldn’t endure
Why I couldn’t look back I’ll never know
Your love was too strong and I was too weak
In love’s competition I could not compete
With commitment, compassion, jealousy, desire
All of these things that your love inspired
Please forgive me for being so weak
When it came to love I was too meek
I wish you all the things I couldn’t give
With love and happiness for as long as you live

The Lover’s Reply

Oh, you foolish lover you foolish man
How can I ever make you understand?
For my love you do not need to compete
It was you and you alone that made my heart beat
I loved your meekness, kindness, and gentle ways
I long to hold on to them the rest of my days
Yes, I forgive you and I always will
For you and you alone can make my heart stand still
I know my heart will miss you if you never look back
But take with you this memory I wrote this day
May it remain in your heart as you go your way
But if you decide it’s my love that you need
Then hurry back and we’ll make it succeed

A Lover’s Response

Never once did I doubt your love for me
It was I that doubted my love for you
A doubt that was based on my insecurity
To hold onto your love as I wanted to
It hurts me deeply to leave you behind
A decision that someday may haunt my mind
But my hurt will never compare with the hurt you feel
Your love for me so deep and real
I mustn’t look back I have to move on
Your words I will keep in my heart while I am gone
Perhaps when all my wandering ways are done
If you’ll have me back then we shall be one
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“I love you the more in that I believe
You had liked me for my own sake
And for nothing else”
John Keats
(1795-1821)

How does one put on paper how he feels inside?
Something changed in me something I could not hide
Something changed in me I’ll never be the same
I never thought at all that love was the game

I had no idea what love was all about
I never thought that word would ever leave my mouth
No one really knows what love could do
I never-ever felt my heart until she came into view

I tried to deny the feelings I felt
But something about her made my heart melt
No words were ever spoken no need just a look
Those eyes, that smile, were all that it took

Something changed in me I’ll never be the same
I fell in love without even knowing her name
Nothing would be the same, the same as they were
For now I’ll spend the rest of my life loving her

I wish it would go away
This feeling that begs to stay
These thoughts of mine tear at the heart
Haunting me from day to day
No one knows what’s happening inside
This feeling I carefully hide
A secret between me and my thoughts
One that I’ve unsuccessfully fought
A struggle to keep the heart forgetting
Has left only thoughts of a heart regretting
I wish it would go away
This feeling that begs to stay
And let me love again while I may♥
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“Love is so short
Forgetting is so long”
Pablo Neruda

I don’t know why I love her so
I don’t know why I can’t let her go
The thoughts of her cloud my head
Although she’s in love with another instead

I spend the nights in solitary grief
While in my dreams I find no relief
The feelings I have are difficult to deal
My love for her so powerful and so real

I wake with the sun and dread the day
Knowing my love for her will not go away
She goes with me wherever I go
Her love I carry a weight too depressing
I desire relief but I find no resting

I reflect on the days we spent together
Though the days numbered but a few
Our love was so real, so deep, and so true
Though years have passed and she with another
I know in my heart she’s still my lover
I can’t seem to break the spell that I’m under
Does she still think of me I often wonder?

I don’t know why I love her so
I don’t know why I can’t let her go
If fate is kind if fate is true
Our love will bind our love will renew
If destiny’s forever if destiny’s in charge
Then someday love’s destiny will forever be ours♥

There’s a place in my heart meant for love
A place reserved for only one
A room prepared by the angels above
The key to which she held alone

A love unlocked, a love overflowing
A love unleashed, a lover’s ember glowing
A love- filled heart only she could satisfy
A love that my heart could never deny

But a romance started maybe a romance departed
Unless the heart’s love is carefully guarded
But when a lover’s heart is destroyed
It leaves an emptiness, an abyss, a primeval void

I opened the door and let her love depart
Dropped the key and shut my heart
Others have tried, while many implored
But the key to my heart remains in the door

There’s a void in my heart no one can fill
Though many have tried to occupy
A door kept locked for eternity
For only she can turn the key

Every time I fall in love it’s always you
Every time I see a star in the blue it’s always you
Every time I smell the fragrance of spring it’s always you
Every time I hear a melody of celestial strings it’s always you

I never think about others, they have no meaning for me
I’ve taken chances with other romances, but they never seem to be
I’ve known other loves, many passions we have shared
Some asking for much more, more than I could bear

I have witnessed the look in a woman’s eyes
I have heard the longing in a woman’s sigh
I have smelled the fragrance of a woman’s hair
I have experienced the desire of a woman’s gentle care
I have felt the magic of a woman’s touch
But the taste of their kisses never thrilled me much

Every dream I dream it’s always you
Every kiss it seems it’s always you
Every woman I love it’s always you
Oh, how I wish this were only true♥

It never crossed my mind you’d leave me
It never crossed my mind you’d go
I always thought we’d be together
I always thought you loved me so

But now I see that all your charms
Are now being shared in someone else’s arms
I shed a tear when I see you walk by
Holding tightly to the arm of another guy

I would never have thought you’d refer to me
As someone you knew
An acquaintance of sorts
A somebody who

You no longer notice when I see you walk by
Your head in the air a look of defy
Played for a fool  never the wise
A love deceived a clever disguise

I may never understand why you left (for another man)
Was it me?
What did I do?
I haven’t a clue
Someday my heart will find another maybe then
I will discover
The secret of the disenchanted lover

How do you hold back a tear
Whenever a thought of her appears?
How do you erase that thought
When your heart tells you naught?

How do you hold back a tear
Whenever you wish she was near?
How do you remove that wish
When your heart tells you of its bliss?

How do you hold back a tear
When a dream of her reappears?
How do you vanquish a dream
When your heart tells you it’s not what it seems?

How do you hold back a tear
Whenever you sigh a why?
How do you wipe away a sigh
When your heart tells you not to try?

How do you hold back a tear?
It’s impossible to try
Memories never fade I fear
So it’s okay to breakdown and cry

With rejection comes loneliness
With loneliness comes despair
With despair comes grief
With grief comes a solitary tear

Relationships are meaningless with only one
Dreams never dreamt can never come true
Romance never shared is romance undone
Love never returned is love left eschew

Heartache begins when love has ended
Heartache turns a dream into a yearning
Heartache yearns for a heart to be mended
Heartache longs for a love still burning

Hopelessness becomes the very last scene
A knowing that love lost can never be found
A vision of love surrenders its final beams
As they slowly bring the (final) curtain down
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“Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all”
Alfred Lord Tennyson
(1809-1892)

Many believe that life has one go around
I believed it to be so
Believed that love lost would never be found
and so I lived it as though

Days and nights sunrise and sunsets
Merge as one lives through vanishing
Time never a word spoken a life lived
In mime

Thoughts and dreams come and go
Never to be realized and rightly so
For second chances are made for some but
For the lonely they never seem to come

Memories bring back sorrow and sadness
Never a joy in one’s heart never a
Moment of gladness you think of her
And how it used to be and picture that
A second chance would set your heart
Free

The aroma of perfume the taste of tears
The aura of love that enveloped her
Face in my heart I can never replace
But your thoughts and dreams are
No longer for me they are now
Reserved for another he

A second chance comes with a risk
A stepping out a danger of love
Renewed but love buried can only
Be renewed when it comes between two
A touch of a hand a glance of an eye
A gently spoken word can be found
Making love between two forever
Eternal
The second time around♥