You can’t seem to find what you’re looking for
Even though you’ve tried many times before
You discover your desires are never gratified
You long and yearn for a hunger
That needs to be satisfied
You find that you are no one
Until you have a purpose
Life can engulf you
As you struggle to reach the surface
You attempt to define
What’s already been predetermined
Lost, you wonder where you ‘ve been
Clinging to your thoughts
Locking your dreams in a jar
Placing yourself upon the shelf
Until you find yourself
Connected to someone else
Mommy Where did you go? I can’t find you I’m hungry
Mommy I can’t hear you I can’t see you I bruised my knee
Mommy I called but you didn’t answer Can you hear me? I finished my homework
Mommy Where are you? Who’s going hold me when I cry? Dry my eyes? Kiss away the tears? Quell my fears? Hear my prayers?
The angels came Left me behind Memories remain Moments defined
And yet very few will understand Why there’s a little boy in every man ****************************** “What a mother sings to the cradle goes all the way down to the grave.”
Writing in the present
Recording the past
Looking to the future
For things that may last
Layers of memories
Telling a story
Times of sorrow
Times of glory
Words overlap one another
Unfold to discover
That life in a book
Under lock and key
Is not what life is meant to be
A monolog of thoughts
Baring no response
A one-sided romance
With never a chance
Secret thoughts engaged
Searching for hope on every Page
Every word speaks a narrative
Of
Disappointments
Rejections
Loneliness
Of
Hopes
Dreams
Desires
But hopes and dreams can’t guarantee happiness
You’ve closed the book
And never looked back
When life swallows you up
You’ll remember the days
Your life was so simple
In so many ways
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“Fill your paper with the
Breathings of your heart”
William Wordsworth
Opportunities pass you by?
Plans never satisfied?
Expectations never fulfilled?
Chances never taken?
Goals set but never met?
Hesitation with regret?
Love promised but never knew?
It would seem your future
Is always behind you
Today I heard loud knocking I know not where it came I heard in quiet whisper The calling of my name
Today I heard a knocking The same as before Though not as loud I simply ignored
Today I heard soft knocking I know not where it started I pretended to listen Then I simply disregarded
Today I heard faint knocking I could barely make it out Its distance I could not measure For it seemed to resemble a round-a-bout
Today I heard no knocking It seemed to have gone away The whisper in my ear dolefully seem to say There will not be any more Todays ****************************** “Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If any one hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him and he with me. Revelation:(4-20)
Every string of black beads one must conclude Carries a petition of prayer that many bear One black bead following another until at last Each bead has been cast
One large bead held tightly in hand Praying that God would understand Waiting to see If He would answer their prayers
Ten small beads in just a fraction Setting off a chain reaction Carrying a petition through the air A pleasant odor of incense Into the heavenly atmosphere Falling to His feet Resting at the mercy seat
There are: Beads for happiness Beads for love Beads for health Beads for wealth Beads for a bright tomorrow Beads to take away sorrow Beads carried by the wind Beads to cover one’s sin
But beads are only beads And are soon dropped back to earth Broken and shattered having no worth For one’s petition needs only one condition To be in His will before He will ever listen *************************************** ‘Loyalty to God is alone fundamental, feelings. words, deeds be strong on the string of duty. Let the world tell you in a hundred ways what your life is for. Say you ever and only, Lo, I come to do the will of God!”
Destructive words never to be returned
Spread without permission
Revealed secrets
Others learned
Exposing private Affairs
Half-truths that spread doubts
Stealing ones good name
A tongue that controls the mouth
Slanderous
Baseless
Assassinates reputations
Murders character
Evokes hatred
Leads to premature judgment
Destroys confidence
No gossip
No quarrels
No jealousy
No hostilities
It’s from a deceitful heart
These thoughts have sprung
But a mouth that utters lies
Can easily be rectified
Once one has learned to control the tongue
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“Fire goes out for lack of fuel,
And quarrels disappear when gossip stops”
Proverbs 26:20
“In a false quarrel there is no true valor.”
William Shakespeare
Oh how I’ll hate the longing years
The years counted by drops of my tears
The years ahead that I’ll spend
The years of my life where I’ll pretend
That life has meaning and purpose for me
A life I’ll keep secret that no one will see
The time in my life where I’ll make-believe
Many I’ll fool
Many I’ll deceive
For no one knows what’s locked in my heart
The love I’ve stored
The love I’ve kept
The tears I’ve tasted
The tears I’ve wept
A life I’ll keep silent never to conceal
For no one listens
For no one hears
Oh how I’ll hate the longing years
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“What worries you,
Masters you.”
John Locke
(1632-1704)
Haunted by a delusive spirit
You become enslaved to false beliefs and opinions
You chase after untruths that tickle your ears
You distort reality contrary to fact
You discover yourself misled by your doubts and fears
No where to turn you continue the path
Along with others
Dismissing the aftermath
Never a cry for help heard
Never a word
You find yourself disillusioned
Fooled
Tricked
Duped
Into thinking everything is cool
You conceive wrongly
Being deceived all along
But for you
Wrongs are always right
Rights are always wrong
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“Facts do not cease to exist
Because they are ignore”
Aldous Hurley, Complete essays 2
